when i turn around

you won't be there
you never will again

sad
slightly
but mostly out of hope
and all the beliefs that are requried to start over again

when i turn around i want to able to crash
and burn
and i want you to want me to do it
so that your caress can soothe me
like i need it to

grief
no
or maybe just a bit
why can't it just be my turn now
i need confirmation
that it can be different
because all i see now is the same

patterns
in the back of my head
never stops

is it just natures way of teeling when it goes too far
too quick
or
too slow

i don't want to turn around
and see noone
anymore